changed my mind again

well i thought about it and i really don't care anymore & pretty soon i won't really have the time for this so screw it end of blog I'm off to colloge soon

changing things up

alright so this blog has sucked up until now it's been more of an online journal about my high school fencing team than anything else which i admit it no one would want to read. but my life is moveing forward and i have decided to make the appropriate changes to this blog becasue i like the name to much to start over with a different one.

so look for the hopefully soon to come posts in which i plan to talk about some stuff that has been on my mind recantly including the stagnation of human evolution, and how much and why i hate the show finding bigfoot.

still no working blades

coach ashly failed to rewire my blade correctly, how i don't know, so i still have no working blades and possibly no working body cords. joy

End of an Era

just came from the fencing banquet where I got my pin for for my 2nd year on varsity. I got a nice certificate for being a member of the varsity squad. recordings of state teams and individuals which I can't wait to watch.

I also received to very nice awards, plaques,one is the Ledyard booster club award which is for academics leadership and performance.

The other is one of two cornerstone awards, the other went to Sara, congrats to her especially if she happens to read this. the cornerstone wards were basically for being the foundation of the team.

I'm proud to receive these two awards and sorry to see the my last season as a member of the Ledyard fencing team come to and end.

takeing stock of things

so looking back I realized that I beet my rivals Christian and Wan-He basically every time we fenced. Christian beet me once last year at our meet against Bacon, when for some odd reason I just couldn't seem to land a hit, and Wan-He only beet me the first time that we fenced which was the JV invitational at the start of last season, and over the past two years I have beaten both of them 5 times and 2 of the times I beat Christian were 15 point bouts. I am particularly proud off those wins.

now taking stock of the more practical things. My helmet is rusted and dented and even has a couple broken links, my 2 remaining body cords may or may not work, I have one foil which is now in the hands of "armorer" Ashly and therefor may not even be working when I get it back, the Velcro on my nickers is starting to come off and one of the straps on my under arm protector is a mess from half of the string unraveling.

so the helmet should be replaced (probably by a more durable and inevitably more expensive one) soon. I need at least one more body cord and I think the other two are nearing the end. the under arm protector looks stupid but is still usable, my jacket's fine my glove is good, my fencing shoes now have gel pad's which don't slip so those are great, but the biggest issue is the foils I can't get by with only one of those, my Mom can probably fix the Velcro on my nickers in like 20 seconds with her sowing machine so that should be fine.

now last year I got a BF white and a crap blade when the crap blade broke I got a second Bf white now with one of those BF whites (not sure which) dead I'm thinking about getting a BF Blue which is very similar to the BF whites. it's a little stiffer and possible more durable but well wait and see I haven't ordered anything yet.

So I'm sitting in my room

..... and this place is a mess I can't stand it anymore and I'm gonna do something about it right now and that is the end of it

It's finally sinking in

it's over.

It's been a great run, and if I could go back and redo the past three years of being a part of this team I don't think I would change one damn thing.

I won't lie I gave up touches, I blew bouts I could have won, I wasn't perfect. but I always came through in the end.

I caught up with everyone else. Tim, Kevin, Austin, they all had a years head start on me and they all got lessons outside of practice. not me. I wish I could have, maybe I could have, but my brother always had something going on for lacrosse or there was something long term that would get in the way. but despite their head start I caught up and I held my own. I proved myself time and time again, I caught up maybe even surpassed some of them.

if i could change something I would have started freshman year.

other than that though i have no regrets. I worked my way up from nothing but potential to the point where I was the one who kept us in state teams until the very end. did I mention that? at the start of my 2nd and 3rd bouts we were down by one win, and my victory in those bouts tied us up with NFA both times.

I was the only one to get two wins against NFA.

Kevin was so close but at the end with a 4 1 lead two sayings collided, "pride cometh before the fall" and "it ain't over till the fat lady sings". when the score reached 4 4 it was already over for us.

it's an unfortunate habit of Kevin's I recently picked up on, if something fails he will try it over and over again until it works even if it costs him the bout. I noticed it first when I got past his flicks the other day, when I beet him for the first time. then I saw it again at the start of states when he was warming up he did the same thing with Tim. then in that last bout he just kept doing the same thing over and over. but like Albert Einstein said "insanity is doing the same thing and expecting different results" or something like that anyway. well he was right. the results were the same each time Kevin tried his infighting move the difference in the score's got smaller.

so we lost, the rides over, I've had my fun and now I've got to move on.

I don't want to move on, these people, this team, they have been such a huge part of my life that I hate to think that after this we will all be going our own ways, that I might never see some of them again after this year. I hate it!

this isn't some massive group with 20 or 30 people plus as many over for jv and novice. it's 16 fencers and 3 coaches 4 if you count Bronwin's Dad. I don't want to say goodbye to any of them!

they made me who I am today, especially coach Floyd and coach Lindenberger. but also Austin, Kevin, Tim, Patrick, Sarah, Colin, Bronwin, Ben, Kyle, "armorer" Ashly, Elizabeth, Dave, Paty, Addy, Andrew, Rob, Sarah W, Timmy, Conway, Erin, hell even the insanely annoying Dru and the downright insane Zack, have played a part in making me who I am today.