Showing posts with label Insanity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Insanity. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

So I'm sitting in my room

..... and this place is a mess I can't stand it anymore and I'm gonna do something about it right now and that is the end of it

Sunday, March 6, 2011

It's finally sinking in

it's over.

It's been a great run, and if I could go back and redo the past three years of being a part of this team I don't think I would change one damn thing.

I won't lie I gave up touches, I blew bouts I could have won, I wasn't perfect. but I always came through in the end.

I caught up with everyone else. Tim, Kevin, Austin, they all had a years head start on me and they all got lessons outside of practice. not me. I wish I could have, maybe I could have, but my brother always had something going on for lacrosse or there was something long term that would get in the way. but despite their head start I caught up and I held my own. I proved myself time and time again, I caught up maybe even surpassed some of them.

if i could change something I would have started freshman year.

other than that though i have no regrets. I worked my way up from nothing but potential to the point where I was the one who kept us in state teams until the very end. did I mention that? at the start of my 2nd and 3rd bouts we were down by one win, and my victory in those bouts tied us up with NFA both times.

I was the only one to get two wins against NFA.

Kevin was so close but at the end with a 4 1 lead two sayings collided, "pride cometh before the fall" and "it ain't over till the fat lady sings". when the score reached 4 4 it was already over for us.

it's an unfortunate habit of Kevin's I recently picked up on, if something fails he will try it over and over again until it works even if it costs him the bout. I noticed it first when I got past his flicks the other day, when I beet him for the first time. then I saw it again at the start of states when he was warming up he did the same thing with Tim. then in that last bout he just kept doing the same thing over and over. but like Albert Einstein said "insanity is doing the same thing and expecting different results" or something like that anyway. well he was right. the results were the same each time Kevin tried his infighting move the difference in the score's got smaller.

so we lost, the rides over, I've had my fun and now I've got to move on.

I don't want to move on, these people, this team, they have been such a huge part of my life that I hate to think that after this we will all be going our own ways, that I might never see some of them again after this year. I hate it!

this isn't some massive group with 20 or 30 people plus as many over for jv and novice. it's 16 fencers and 3 coaches 4 if you count Bronwin's Dad. I don't want to say goodbye to any of them!

they made me who I am today, especially coach Floyd and coach Lindenberger. but also Austin, Kevin, Tim, Patrick, Sarah, Colin, Bronwin, Ben, Kyle, "armorer" Ashly, Elizabeth, Dave, Paty, Addy, Andrew, Rob, Sarah W, Timmy, Conway, Erin, hell even the insanely annoying Dru and the downright insane Zack, have played a part in making me who I am today.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

School and Sports

this time of year is when students thoughts turn to final exams. but not only to finals but also to sports, and scholarships, and fafsa, and college applications.

I have a grand total of one of these things done. that being my college application

the final schedule changes every other day.

I haven't even started looking for scholarships.

My Mom keeps telling me she is working on fafsa which I quite honestly don't even try to understand because it involves taxes et-cetra.

my coach is concerned about the amount of energy we are putting into our meets because one member of the varsity squad, who happens to be our captain, named Austin, see what I'm doing here starting out like I'm not gonna point fingers and then totally pointing fingers? yeah that's because I'm annoyed went and blew two bouts the other day because he went and fenced like he didn't give a shit which apparently he didn't. now coach is concerned that if we go up with that kind of half assed mentality that it could end up screwing us over when we come up against St. B's, Fitch, and most important of all NFA.

He could be right. we have the best team, and the most experience. but we feel safe we feel secure we are all confident bordering on cocky. Austin has already crossed the border into I don't give a shit land. Kevin can't focus when faced with a shitty ref. which leaves Tim and I doing are honest to God best. why are we trying so hard? because we couldn't care less about the ref, and my ingenious if I do say so myself self motivation strategy of holding a bagel contest with Tim keeps us competitive.

for the record the stress is slowly vaporizing my brain

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Dealing with A-holes

Richard (last name omitted for the simple fact that it is my policy not to use last names on my blog) although anyone from my school will know who I'm talking about if I say pickle boy.

anyway

Richard decided to make an ASS of himself today (not a task he finds particularly difficult). now on a normal day I don't see or talk to this piece of shit. but today I happened to pass him in the hallway on my way to the cafe. I had my Letterman Jacket draped over my shoulder with the words (school name) Fencing embroidered on the back were facing out. as he passed me in the hallway he asked "hey why is fencing on that jacket?" not understanding why he was asking such a stupid question I replied "because fencing is my sport." his answer was "that's what I mean fencing isn't a sport." he kept right on walking down the hallway so that I had to yell at his back "yes it is you piece of shit!"

WHAT THE HELL! I was just minding my own business and he goes out of his way to piss me off! I don't even really know this guy!

why am I bitching about this here? because If i talked about it on facebook my coach would tell me to ignore stupid people, my aunt's and uncles would tell me to let it go and some people might just say I was making a mountain out of a mole hill while others would just agree the guy is an A-hole. since I just need to vent and not get preached at for venting I decided this belonged here. besides it's related to fencing and it's one of those things I call insanity.

oh completely unrelated but positive note Sarah D. (from now on If I say Sarah it means Sarah D. since Sarah W. quite this year) found another girl for the team so it looks like we are in the clear for now.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Possible Impending Schedual Change

My high school intends to switch from a 4 block schedule to a 7 block schedule

Some teachers are worried about trying to cram all the material they cover in AP courses into less time, because of the possible schedule change next year.

The administration isn't asking those teachers for their opinions.

You will also notice that nobody is asking about the students opinions either.

Why? because they know what we are all thinking and they don't care. That or their hands are tied.

Even though it won't effect me I can't help but think about it and feel sorry for the people who will get stuck with this crap. and I hate to think about how 20 or 30 years from now when they raise the standards again how kids are going to start having nervous breakdowns, that is of course if this change doesn't do it first.

This is what I was talking about in my last post

Monday, October 18, 2010

Trends of Insanity

educational standards have been increasing exponentially and moral standards have been exponentially decreasing.

I fear that within a few generations teenagers will have even less scruples about premarital sex, and do to an ever increasing amount of information we are expected to learn being crammed into a constant amount of time, many will doubtless begin to question the point of attending school when the vast majority of what they are learning will never be used in their line of work. this has already begun to occur but many will decide that the classes are therefore pointless and stop working or in other cases students may begin to have nervous breakdowns from the immense stress of trying to keep up with their classes

Friday, October 1, 2010

One of Those Days

This has been one of those days where you learn something that makes you feel guilty for having an easy life, a life where the only thing you have to worry about is whether or not you did well on a test, or whether or not you will win some game. compared to my tiny troubles their are people in this world who have to worry about whether or not they will live to see tomorrow. Invisible Children came to our school and gave a presentation today and I coldn't even make a donation because I didn't have any money with me. uh right the invisble children are these kids in Uganda who have been ubducted by the Lords Revolutionary Army led by Joseph Kony, the kids are threatend with death and some are forced to kill their own family members they are taking perfectly normal 11 year old kids and turning them into murders. I'm gonna come right out and say this any country worth living in should be pitching in to put an end to this in fact they should already have been doing so for a long time. Find the leader of these child ubducting mass murdering genocidal bastards, Joseph Kony. send in a couple teams of snipers or get his location and fire a predator missles at him and end it. it's been going on for more than 20 years already. and even though i'm 17 i'm only hearing about it now way to go American media you couldn't aford to mention something this important?! Screw the trial, guys like this need to die, end of discussion. He would get the death sentance anyway, so just save some time, and some lives, and rid this world of this demon.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Morons!!!!

to anyone out their reading this who thinks they know Jack about sword fighting and they do not fence or do something based on sword fighting. I am here to inform you that you are WRONG!!!! Foil's are based on one of the most fast paced types of sword fighting. claymore's, and broadswords are slow by comparison. why you ask? because those are primarily slashing weapons and a rapier is a very light weight thrusting weapon, and any fencer who can't land a touch before someone swings a broadsword needs to retire, because a lunge should take less than 1 sec. so all the people in my 4th block class. I would own you in a sword fight. end of discussion.

Monday, September 20, 2010

Cross Roads

I keep running into cross roads lately.

I've been talking with my Uncle who keeps forcing me to challenge my religious beliefs. in a good way, I'm learning a lot about the faith that before I would just try to ignore. answering questions i was afraid to ask but the answers are not what I expected. They don't fill me with anger or rebellion. They are simple but they fit and they don't contradict and it's kinda calming.

I'm reading Fahrenheit 451, which talks about books being replaced by the instant gratification of images and sounds even if those images and sounds are completely lacking in quality. that has me questioning how good manga really are even though many are just comic books for some time now I have asserted that many or at least some are just as good as any novel from the respective genre. Fahrenheit 451 has me questioning the accuracy of that statement.

feels like all I'm doing lately is questioning myself.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

stupid essay

working on my collage essay. since my Mom kept telling me that this was how they were going to get to know me and it should express something about me. It somehow turned into me talking about the majority of the negative emotions i have experianced in my life and how they made me who I am today. I will most likely just end up rewriting it because I'm worried it will come across as me bitching about having a shity life, which, if you ask me, was definatly the case between the start 6grade and start of 9 grade. but thats really not what i had in mind i was really aiming for something along the lines of, "this is what my life was, this is what my life is now, and this is what I want it to be". well i got the first part coverd anyway.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

My Weekend

so basically my weekend went like this

watched Dr. horribles Sing along blog like 3 time because it was awesome despite the name sounding lame.

spent a lot of time on Onemanga.com reading "One Piece".

watched my brother play lacrosse, which is always great.

went to my uncle's birthday party and had to spend time around their "friends" some of whom are OK and some of whom are evil people hiding behind a religious veil. if that sounds dramatic I'm sorry but i need to explain that there are at least two very bad things that can happen because of religion, the first is that people who are, not exactly abusive but shall we say, they take excessive physical action in order to make children "behave", the second is that good people can become closed minded and except anyone who is devoutly religious as a good person without looking at there character.

both of those traits were evident at this party. i wont go into the details but i swear if i ever catch that guy in the act of doing anything harmful to my little cousins i will take full advantage of the opportunity and tell him "exactly" what i think of him, and if he gives me an excuse i will flatten that Bastard! Maybe having a teenager beet the living Crap (which i am assuming has replaced his soul) out of him will teach him to play nice with little kids!

Ghaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!

this is driving me more insane than usual and i am totally giving myself heartburn all because my aunt and uncle have shitty choices when it comes to friends! Dammit!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Stupid Physics Teacher

well huh. i haven't posted since Thursday. normally I'm much better about posting once a day but well you know. so lets see Friday was interesting.

my physics teacher was absent two days in a row so it was an improvement except for the work. he assigned a # of problems from our book for us to do in class on Friday except there were several small problems we haven't used our books in about a month and he did not tell the sub which chapter we should be doing.

Moron,

we spent the first 15 min of the class trying to figure out which chapter to do and reaffirming the fact that he would fail us all if we chose the wrong chapter. why did it take so long? because there are about half a dozen chapters in that book relating to electricity (the subject we have been "learning" about)

we finally settled on chapter 23 but there was one problem, we did not know how to do any of the problems in chapter 23 or any of the other problems in any of the other chapters relating to electricity for that matter. so i spent half the class taking educated guesses for the problems that required words to answer and writing in 42 (the ultimate answer to life the universe and everything) for the problems that required # answers while leaving the unit of measurement blank.

if we don't all fail that assignment i would be absolutely amazed.

i then went to my brothers lacrosse game they lost but it was a good game and they had a rally towards the end my brother is a defense man and i love watching him, literally, knock the other team off their feet =J what can i say I'm proud of my little brother.

then we rushed back to the high school in time to watch the students who were performing the star wars cabaret, including Laura and my friend Tang walk off the stage. so yeah we missed the hole thing but we did try to get their.

oh and unlike a lot of teenagers i decided to skip Prom this year. Why? because it is awkward i don't like grinding or even watching people grind for that matter. so why spend money to stand around in a freaking tux just to feel uncomfortable when i could be at home relaxing in a pair of shorts and a t-shirt. i guess I'll have to go to the senior prom otherwise i will most likely look back on it some day and regret it but for now I'm content too just stand outside the fire.

if anyone can actually figure out that reference i will be absolutely amazed.

Monday, May 3, 2010

We Are All Inheriting @#$%

Don't believe me? check out the news sometime. Mexico is going up in flames because of drug wars. the Earth is bleeding oil into the ocean faster than we can cope. Some guy threatened to bomb Time Square.

what the hell kind of planet are we really going to inherit from our parents well from were I'm standing right now it looks to be a pretty shity one.

I have read so many comments left online at Yahoo buzz written by people who are never happy with the government and never will be because it isn't there idea of perfect but you know what? that's how it is. it will never ever be every ones idea of perfect.

but since it can't meet every ones expectations here is a crazy naive idea that any 3 year old could come up with. STOP THE INSANITY

Everything that we need to do we know to do but we haven't done it. why not? because America as a nation, is both fascinated and terrified by change. we love the idea but we don't want to see it take place. sorry Obama, it got you into office but they won't love you for actually trying to accomplish it. (not saying i agree or disagree with everything or anything you want to change just stating a fact)

Mid West get over yourself and start installing solar panels and wind turbines and don't give me that bull @#$% about birds getting hit by the turbines or them being noisy.

Engineers get your heads out of your butts and find an alternative fuel source to gasoline, something that doesn't ruin the earth preferably.

Drug war people in Mexico, is it really worth the money to kill all those innocent people? you are selling your humanity for pieces of paper with numbers on them. it just is not worth it.

Big business owners you are taking advantage of Children! you have moved your company's around the world as country after country have declared underpaying children to do dangerous work illegal what if it was your kid risking getting their arm torn off in a machine for some almost nonexistent pay. how can you sleep at night?!

we all know what we can do to make a better world as individuals, as familys, as nations, as a species. Shouldn't that be enough of a reason? Just do it!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Banquet part 2

New girls captain: Erin. this is rather surprising to say the least. next year she will only be able to attend Friday practices, unless her legs make a miraculous recovery. do to the new rule which is mostly because of her ability to distract the other girls and Kevin from what they should be doing whenever she is sitting down.

New Guys/overall Captain: Austin: well i can't say i didn't see it coming I am still slightly disappointed but he will do a good job and besides which i still intend to teach whatever newbies we get next year everything i can.

Awards for the year well i don't really care to go over everything everyone was awarded so I'm doing my own awards ceremony right now.

Kylie: trooper award! for fencing for about a month with broken fingers and saving the girls varsity team on more than one occasion from being eliminated.

Colin, Zack: the cocky award! for your undying belief that next year you will make varsity i really do appreciate your enthusiasm but i will keep my opinion on your odds to myself.

Ben: infighting award!

Rob: uncanny ability to be very quite award!

Kevin: Terrible singing award! cocky award! empty headed award! unintentionally setting up amazing that's what she said jokes for the rest of us to make award!

Bronwin: violence award!

Erin: Distraction award!

Sarah D: Vengeance award! for finally becoming an offensive fencer!

Drew: What did you spend the season doing award?!

Timmy: Voice of reason and Sanity award!

Tim: Pervy jokes award! & the finally asked her out after 3 weeks of her hanging around to watch you practice award!

Sarah W: talking like a 5 year old to make everyone laugh award!

Andrew: linked at the seat award! for always sitting down next to Erin during practice when you should have been fencing

Austin: the came back home, got knocked down, got back up, dusted yourself off, then came out swinging award! for the full story read some of my earlier post about my varsity showdown with Austin.

Patrick: Insanity award! i have saved the best for last. Patrick held off challenging Timmy for two weeks leaving him only one chance to make varsity. he lost after what started as a terrific bout and then fell apart after 9-9. you practically drove me insane with your numerous complaints. you swore you were going to quit the team on more then one occasion. and yet despite the fact that you never fenced varsity you still out of the blue got your letter this year. =^) I really am happy for you Pat just incredible confused =^? and arguing whether or not its right for you to have your letter while simultaneously thinking hurray we really did both get our letters this year. so I'm not sure were i stand on this just yet but since you were as shocked as i was i guess i wont hold it against you ;)

i feel like it would be wrong to give my self an award so brief outline of season from my point of view. beat Patrick for my varsity spot in an incredibly tense bout. beat Austin to retain my varsity spot. fenced varsity at every meet, went to ECC's, States, and won the final amazing, dare i say fantastic, win at state teams to secure the fifth place spot for guys varsity. got my letter, a nice little pin to go with the letter, a cool medal that everyone got, and more confidence than the guy in those really annoying male enhancement commercials, i am now a USFA fencer and i am working towards getting ranked.

Coach Floyd: Words of Wisdom Award! you always know what to say to best motivate the team and always give good advice

Coach Aron: Basics Award! you always manage to pound the basics into the new guys and you do it early enough in the season that they have time to develop there own technique.

Coach/Armorer Ashly: Fix it Award! for keeping the every ones gear in a usable state for the whole season.

Coach Juhas: (sry the spelling is probably off but i know it starts with a J and that's the best i could do sounding it out) the support award you came to every event you could attend and were always very supportive of us. for which, i at least, am very grateful.

highlights for me tonight (not all good). on the slide show they had playing one of the slides was my blogs title and header. i have no idea were whoever made the slide show got it, because as far as i know only Pat ever read my blog, but i intend to find out. then here is the crappy highlight they had a bunch of Styrofoam swords and we had a free for all fight in the cafe and i retreated into and over one of Ben's little brothers. he then hit his head on the floor, hard, as a result which means i feel awful. i was retreating and he was behind me and i didn't see him and well i feel like @#$% about it. final highlight my Mom's quilt got auctioned off for $60.